She raised her head, she saw me and spoke: “Who has brought this one here?”ĭylan had a much more positive view of the afterlife (continued from the previous “5 days before” entry): I saw also Samuqan, god of cattle, and there was Ereshkigal the Queen of the Underworld and Belit-Sheri squatted in front of her, she who is recorder of the gods and keeps the book of death. In the house of dust which I entered were high priests and acolytes, priests of the incantation and of ecstasy there were servers of the temple, and there was Etana, that king of Kish whom the eagle carried to heaven in the days of old. They who had stood in the place of the gods like An and Enlil stood now like servants to fetch baked meats in the house of dust, to carry cooked meat and cold water from the waterskin. I entered the house of dust and I saw the kings of the earth, their crowns put away for ever rulers and princes, all those who once wore kingly crowns and ruled the world in the days of old. They are clothed like birds with wings for covering, they see no light, they sit in darkness. There is the house whose people sit in darkness dust is their food and clay their meat. He turned his stare towards me, and he led me away to the palace of Irkalla, the Queen of Darkness, to the house from which none who enters ever returns, down the road from which there is no coming back. If that isn’t depressing enough, here is a Mesopotamian depiction of the underworld that came to mind: Sinai, Abraham, David, bible gay shit god, but a true controller of existence. To be aware is not a trait, it’s a godlike thing, blessed god, not a christian, jesus, Mt. They will never learn, or maybe they will, but won’t have the strength to learn. Humans are zombies, they scratch for acceptance & greed & kill themselves thru each other. A very influential number, another brick in my journeyed wall. Yet the me, the one, can now control the pain, & it is done. The humanity of here & now clouds all that I see. “Five days” before NBK (maybe it was really six given the delay, JC-001-026484-026485): Probably just a coincidence, although Dylan does note in his datebook for Aug(JC-001-026440) that one of his assignments is to read Chapters 2 and 3 about Egypt and Mesopotamia (which would include the Sumerians) for Social Studies class. E.g., “God/Heaven will decide when we should be together, God/Heaven decided when our existence started, it should end the same way,” “wait for God/Heaven to act.” If you replace “Fate” in the above passages with “God” or “Heaven,” they still make sense in a way that replacing them with “Chaos” would not. That actually sort of fits the meaning the symbol has in Dylan’s diary. Sumerian logogram DINGIR, (“god, heaven, sky”) To be honest, when I first saw this symbol in Dylan’s writings and being the ancient history nerd I am, I immediately thought of the Sumerian cuneiform symbol for “god sky heaven the god An, Lord of Heaven.” Yet, calling her is a state of humanity….ĭylan seems to have pressed the Chaos symbol, an eight-pointed star with arrowheads at each point, into service as his “Fate” symbol, though I have no idea what might have prompted him to do that. I don’t know if I should call her, or wait for fate to act. decided when our existence started, it should end the same way, with us unknowing, in limbo. The thing I have concluded is that fate will decide when we should be together. (Yet b?) I’m here, STILL alone, still in pain, so is she. The pain multiplies infinitely, never stops. I thought it would have been time by now. Note that he crosses out “fate” and replaces it with the symbol. Towards the end of his Existences diary/journal, Dylan starts using this symbol to mean “fate”:įrom the 1-20-99 entry (JC-001-026414).
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